It was a little over 5 years ago that I came into the realization that I was very unhappy with my life and the direction it was going; I was stuck in a toxic relationship, I was surrounded by things I didn’t need and I had superficial friendships, it was all quite lonely.
Fast forward to today my life has completely changed; I’m in a healthy loving relationship, I don’t have piles of useless crap, my friendships are meaningful and I’m no longer lonely. This change didn’t happen overnight, it’s has been a long process that’s still in progression, but it was the decision to change my life that started it all.
I began simplifying my life by decluttering my space with the things I didn’t need. I sold, donated or tossed anything that was purely occupying space without purpose. After doing this I felt accomplished, yet I wasn’t satisfied. So I began reading self help books, I listened to life coaching podcasts , I read article upon article about self growth, I watched motivational speakers on YouTube, I was evolving. I became aware that the toxic relationship I was in had to finally come to a close as it was not evolving with me and hindering any future progress I wanted to make. Along with ending said relationship I became more aware of the other meaningless relationships that no longer deserved any more of my attention. It was time to move on. And let me tell you, it hasn’t been easy, growth is painful, change is painful, but nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong. I faced so much criticism and backlash from family, friends that I thought were my friends and even people that I wasn’t even personally connected to had their share of words for me. Fortunately I have a great support system made up of close family members, friends, co-workers and people I met along the way that have encouraged me to keep going. I cannot express the gratitude that I have for these individuals, to them I say thank you.
I began sharing my journey through various social platforms, however it was always shared in an incognito sort of way, these platforms never really lasted long once the people outside my social circle became aware of it. I felt threatened by their judgment so I would delete all my hard work and restart somewhere else. Silly right? After all that progress I’ve made, the support system I established I was still scared of their criticism. I began to analyze this mentality I had become subject to and I learned that this was impeding my self growth. Eleanor Roosevelt once said “Do what you feel in your heart to be right – for you’ll be criticized anyway.”. I didn’t get this far to get this far so I’m finally sharing my story and various other parts of my life without fear of the judgment that may come. You may question to why even share it at all, what’s the point? To that I respond, writing is one of my many passions and an outlet in which I find liberating, it’s simply my path…it’s simply me.
I look forward to sharing my life, my family and the many things that I have discovered and will be discovering along the way with you.